You Will Make Mistakes: Discovering God's Grace in the Midst of Perfectionism
Authored by Lenee M. Pezzano Foreword written by Rose Hammer
In March 2020, I found myself preparing to attend an online church meeting hosted by friends of mine in Illinois. It was in the midst of the government shut down due to the Covid virus, and like all of you, I was looking for ways to stay close to friends and family and connect in meaningful ways. While most of the attendees were from Illinois, there were also people who joined from Ohio, North Carolina, and myself at the time, from Texas. While I had known my friends for years, everyone else I was meeting for the first time. After a discussion of scripture and prayer we began to talk more intimately as a group and discuss life as it was.
Lenee was one of my new acquaintances. She is a beautiful woman with long, flowing brown curls that frame a glowing sun kissed face adorned with large compelling eyes and a smile that will brighten anyone’s day. She possesses the raw, natural beauty that Solomon so passionately describes as the physical attributes of his lover in Song of Solomon. When she first spoke, I knew I was going to like her. It was clear to me that she was a professional who handled herself well, spoke with consideration and kindness, was mature in her reasoning, and while sharp witted, had a genuineness that made her approachable. Being an entrepreneur and professional myself for over 40 years, it was an immediate connection – but what truly brought us together, was our love of God and the desire to spread the Good News of that love to others!
We spent hours getting to know each other, sharing stories, discussing life, advising each other on business matters, laughing, crying, and praying together on a regular basis. My daughter and I even flew to Illinois to visit our mutual friends and Lenee drove over from Ohio so we could finally meet face to face. It was a time filled with good fellowship, laughter, and great Italian cooking! Lenee impresses in the kitchen as only an Italian can, and my daughter now regularly makes Lenee’s homemade manicotti recipe!
For my own life, God had begun to unfold a vision to me concerning the development of a retreat where people would come to find comfort – whether that be in the form of food, shelter or companionship. While the retreat is multifaceted, one of the more profound aspects is an offering to those in hospice care. For those who are without family or a nice place to spend their last days, they are invited to come and stay at the retreat free of charge, surrounded by beauty and those who care, so they may be loved on and pass with dignity. As the vision began to unfold, the steps were taken to create a 501c3 nonprofit and The Delsa was birthed. Having need of a Board of Directors, it was vital to the success of the vision that the board members be comprised of true disciples of Yeshua, and that they would be prayer warriors for the work that lay ahead. Lenee was one of five that lay on my heart, and I was blessed and encouraged when she accepted.
As our friendship and business ventures continued to entwine our lives, what began to unfold was that we shared similar struggles in our walk with God. Lenee was a true friend and confidante and I found great comfort in discussing the various challenges, talking through scripture that always pointed us to the truth, and praying for each other that “…the One who began a good work among you will keep it growing until it is completed on the Day of the Messiah Yeshua.” Phillippians 1:6
In Lenee’s own life God had given her a vision as well. She had known for a few years that she would be writing a book and as God unfolded the message to her, she was faithful to pick up the pen and write. As she worked on the final draft she reached out to a group of people, asking that they read through the draft and give feedback. I was honored to be a part of that team and relished being one of the first to savor the words that flowed from this woman’s love of God, and experience the compassion, understanding and mercy He was pouring out to his people through this message. I found as I turned each page that my heart was stirred with conviction, and as the tears fell silently, I found words of hope, words of power, words of joy for my own life. Lenee’s personal insight into the struggles of a perfectionist, how God views this cruel task master, and His ultimate deliverance from this bondage into the Kingdom of God, has been woven into a beautiful cloak that I hope you will be able to slip your arms into, as I did, and wrap it around you as a gentle reminder that you are loved and cherished, a child of God, and that you can trust Him….always…
“Many people who heard him say these things trusted in him. So, Yeshua said to the Judeans who had trusted him. ‘If you obey what I say, then you are really my disciples, you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.’” John 8:30-32
“…be satisfied with what you have; for God himself has said, ‘I will never fail you or abandon you.’ Therefore, we say with confidence, ‘Yehovah is my helper; I will not be afraid - what can a human being do to me?” Remember…those who spoke God’s message to you. Reflect on the results of their way of life, and imitate their trust – Yeshua the Messiah is the same yesterday, today and forever.” Hebrews 13:5-8
“Unless Yehovah builds the house, its builders work in vain.
Unless Yehovah guards the city, the guard keeps watch in vain.
In vain do you get up early and put off going to bed, working hard to earn a living
For he provides for his beloved, even when they sleep.” Psalm 127:1-2
“Furthermore, we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called in accordance with his purpose; because those whom he knew in advance, he also determined in advance would be conformed to the pattern of his son, so that he might be the firstborn among many brothers; and those whom he thus determined in advance, he also called; and those whom he called, he also caused to be considered righteous; and those whom he caused to be considered righteous, he also glorified!” Romans 8:28-30
“My sheep listen to my voice, I recognize them, they follow me and I give them eternal life. They will absolutely never be destroyed, and no one will snatch them from my hands. My Father, who gave them to me, is greater than all; and no one can snatch them from the Father’s hands. I and the Father are one.” John 10:27-30
May these pages provide insight, hope and above all else, a clear trumpet that you are indeed loved, forgiven through the blood and broken body of Yeshua on the cross, and are called to live a renewed life through the resurrection power of the Holy Spirit! To God be all the Glory!